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Sleepless in New Jersey

The time is 1:45 am, and I have been desperately trying to go to sleep. This is day 3 of no sleep or very little sleep. See, I have Fibromyalgia and I ache... boy, do I ache. The pain is awful. Its like having the flu and then some. You ache and ache and the pain just does not go away, no matter what you do. Take painkillers, pills prescribed by your docs... nothing works apart from sleep and which when you have Fibro, eludes you. Its a cruel catch 22 situation.

So what am I doing, well I have read a book, and after I could read no more, I meditated, and after I couldn't do that any more, i facebooked and after that, here I am, blogging about my debilitating disease.... that is exactly what this is dis.. ease of the painful kind. So many symptoms, brain fog, chronic fatigue, pain all over that it hurts when you stand up and hurts when you lie down and basically hurts no matter what... and its frustrating.

May 12th is Fibromyalgia awareness day. And I think everybody should know about it and them may be someone will come up with a cure or at least a way to make this less painful.

I know this is meant to be a positive post, so I am going to say how grateful I am for the internet, to allow me to record my thoughts and allow me to get the message across of what I am feeling and what I am going through. I hope whoever is reading this has learnt something today.

I think too much emphasis is paid to perfection. Being the perfect daughter, sister, wife, mother and so forth and so forth will make you happy. What is happiness? Who makes these rules? Who decides that if you do A plus B and C it will be equal happiness? You can have the 2.4 four kids, house in suburbia, the social life, the job that pays for it all and then some. ..but you still don't "feel" it.
And that there is your answer.... You have to feel it. It doesn't matter whether you have those things or not,  you don't need anything to be happy. I don't need to say that its all relative. One persons meager bowl of soup is another's bowl of happiness, gratefulness and comfort. A few dollars to some means the world, that they can have the basics; milk, cereal, bread etc. Where I work, I see the happiness in someones eyes when they receive $20 to feed their family or get medicine and they are grateful, so very grateful.

Happiness is there for you and inside you, you just have to appreciate it and feel it.

So, this is my first blog ever!!! A bit late on the bandwagon, I know, but better late then never! I am a huge fan of quotes. HUGE. So most of the time I think I will be posting quotes that I believe in and my thoughts on the crazy, crazy world we live in. Try to find some good in it. I am so fed up of seeing negative news...So heres to a positive blog... with some blah's added to it!